Every time we press that "search" button, whether it be,
SEX
LOVE
PORN
INTIMACY
JOKES
WEDDINGS
ENGAGEMENTS
BABY NAMES
PLACES TO LIVE
The list could go on. Every time you hit "search" is when the void begins to widen. I have found myself in this position too many times to keep track of. I have felt, unfulfilled, not content, unsettled, lonely, uncomfortable, or just bored. These emotions are when your heart can be the most vulnerable, in other words, when the devil seeks out the PERFECT moment to attack. He WANTS and DESIRES for our hearts to feel these things. When your gaurd is down and you are simply just searching for answers and ways to fulfill your time, he sees this as an opportunity. A way to make you feel guilty. Burdened. Depressed. Ugly. Alone. Idiotic. Stupid. He may even try to tell you that you have just gone too far. Too far from God's grace. You are an abuser. Have taken advantage of God. Have fallen astray too many times. Have asked for help too many times.
LIES
LIES
LIES
These are all LIES that the devil cant WAIT to place in your mind! He can't hardly wait to jump on the opportunity, and to bring you DOWN!
Truth is, you are HUMAN. You WILL mess up. Time and time again. You will feel filthy, worthless, hopeless, and just too distant.
So your probably saying.. ummmm yes! I have, or do feel like this, your point issss...????
Our Creator is beautiful. He's majestic. Flawless. Endless. Time can't even compare. He is LOVE, he is eternal, he is all fulfilling, he is almighty, he is powerful, he is perfect, he is all knowing, he is the Great I AM, he is EVERTHING! Thankfully we have a King whose love is wide and deep that we can never swim too far from the shore, or too close to the bottom. In these times of darkness, just call out to the Savior, and He is eager to shower you in his pure grace.
Feeling empty sucks. I know. I really do. I have been there way too many times before. Throughout my struggle, God has changed it to my journey with Him. Everytime I stumble, it is just another milestone to add to my testimony. And a new way to relate and connect with someone else. God doesn't care where you have been or what you have done, he UNDERSTANDS! He sent His son SOLELY so He could understand MORE and to help us truely WITNESS a real human living a holy life to live by!
Our sin is disgusting! But people, let it be exposed! When you start confessing and having people hold you accountable, I promise it gets easier. Living this life on earth is WAY too difficult to get through by yourself. I dont care who you are, you can't get through it on your own. You need community, people to feel joy with, people to cry with, people to encourage and people to encourage YOU. Even though people can tear other people apart, we can make eachother stronger.
